all about today... and just some other stuff thrown in...

i actually felt pretty good about today. i didn't feel like like i was going to break down. it was truly incredible. i felt happinness again. i laughed today. i smiled today. and that voice in the back of my head that is always trying to bring me down, it was silent today. yesterday however, that was not a good day. when i got home i was in a horrible mood, wishing for any person that just might happen to have the name of John *cough* to show his face somewhere, and then i would just rip into that kid
wow, i think i have anger issues... that's not good...oh well...
but i would still feel better about it. just because i would be able to get rid of at least one of my problems... but it would probably just make it worse, which is why i haven't done anything about this special child before. i really don't know how he is still alive, honestly truly... somebody needs to jump him... soon.

anyways on the happy note...
not really sure what i was going to say now...
i'm ready to ditch my required classes in school... but that's not what i was gong to say...


i don't know. tonight i have a concert and it's going to be totally awesome... ya...awesome...
i want to get out of my house. live somewhere else for a while. even if i was just living on the side of the mountain for a while it would be better than coming here every day.
i'm ready for some change, like moving somewhere else... like on the other side of this mountain... that would be nice...
i like winter, i don't get headaches. in the summer i do all the time and tylenol and ibuprofen don't work on me for some reason. the only way i can get rid of them is by drinking ice cold water... and then walk around with a bag of ice on my head... that's probably why i stay so warm in the winter. because i prefer to be in a colder climate, and so that's what my body gets used to. i am grateful for that... teheheh! sorry... hahaha.... *cough* just got a fit of laughter for a second there... hahaha, and it hasn't stopped yet...

...ok now i'm good...

anyways...